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once again.....i need a fresh start all those who love me come add/comment me on http://www.xanga.com/diastollic_illusion

i apologize for my absence

sorry i havent updated in awhile everyone.....its been a crazy week or so.....reid is on tour again...marco island is less than two weeks away....i start both of my jobs tomorrow [yes...the day camp hired me again AND i work at AE....]....plus i am nowhere near my goal weight.....YES i reached 120 but i went on a binging spree and im back up to 125....i see reid on monday....i want to be 118 by then....

i went to the beach today and loved examining my bones....i felt my hipbones....but the scale is lying to me.....im gonna work out before i talk to reid and go to sleep.....ill try to comment you all back asap....PLEASE write and keep me on track.....it adds to my fuel....pure encouragement....its not that i get hungry....i actually dont....its my family and friends who make me weak.....i need your uplifting.....thank god i work tomorrow through breakfast and lunch and the beginning of dinner so i can virtually skip all the meals....

alright. workout time.

peacelove&elle

i did it.

im 120.

i love reid sooooooo much!

ill update more later

my arms are looking thinner....than before....i still have lots of work

this was at his show last night....totally fun!!!!

check them out on myspace!!!!! www.myspace.com/heirs

i got the job at american eagle.......

i worked today....

sorry i didnt update yesterday...heres the scoop:

W- 124ish

B- nothing

L- smoothie

D- BLT [minus the bacon...so around 200c]; sugar free jello

S- milkshake [approx. 400]

E- ran for 45 minutes then bike rode for 30, then ran another hour and 15 minutes PLUS crunches

3 green tea pills

TODAY!!!!

W- 122ish

B- nothing [green tea pill]

L- nothing

D- nothing yet but i know were having seafood linguini

E- not a whole lot yet....about 30 minutes of jog/crunches/leg lifts

im excited. i wanted to be 120 by tomorrow and im sooooo close!!! however, i might have been there if it wasnt for the milkshake......

REID's HOME TOMORROW!!!!!

EDIT: i prolly ate 700 cals of linguini if not more....but i rode my bike for 30 mins and ill prolly run tonight

no matter the layers i strip from myself its never there...

its warm outside. insanely warm. so i walked around the house in my bathing suit to see how obese i am.

now THATS motivation.

edit:

input- watermelon; jello [sugarfree]; chicken fajita [>200cals]     

output- two bike rides [total almost 1.5 hours] MAYBE dodgeball later.....gosh i love summer...